finally

home now.
i couldnt bear to stay for one more nite at that hotel.
i wanted to be home in my own bed.
i think i'll watch my new copy of legend and lust over tim curry as the big 'D'.

there's no internet connection on my puter now so i'm using my pops. the other day we cut the dsl service and switched to cable but the cable isnt hooked up in my room and for some reason the hub thing isn't working. bah. work on it tomorrow.

i swear. i can't wait to go up to portland and seattle and then LA and hang out with people wearing latex without having to be around TWEAKERs.

was the fetishball ok? well yes it was. the shows were fine too. disorganized and stressful? slightly. all cuz of drugs and it's such a shame. fetish parties should be places where you go so that when you leave for home u feel exhausted yet exhillerated. not tired and relieved to be away from all the crazies. my dad came into my room and said my things smelled funny. i guess it was from the smoke coming out of the damn crack pipe.
i also learned that i have a skill: being able to fall asleep while 10 ppl are in the same room talking at over 100 miles an hour. good skill there.

i dont hate ppl that do drugs, i did them myself at one point. but what i do hate is when it gets into my personal space and infringes upon my state of mind. oh well.
at least i got to the ball early enough to hang out with friends a bunch.
i didnt get to go to polly's party though. just spent a nice evening with a couple of friends over at my old corner bar (one of many corner bars) in SF. i used to play on their league pool team and it was nice to be able to sit in there and drink n smoke at the same time as well.

more on weekend later.

water weather. charity events. summer.

damn it's hot outside
i just washed my car in the sun sun and it's hot!
couldnt do the inside windows though. black leather interior makes it too difficult.
gotta wait til later. i got this rain-x defogger stuff that also leaves a coat on the glass. my dad says is buddy uses it to make wiping off nasty cig smoke residue easier.

NEXT SUNDAY on June 8th i'll be at Antonio's Nuthouse participating in the Bartender Dunk for Charity. The charity being Stanford's Children's Hospital. i might not be drinking that early (starts at noon) but i'll sure i'll jump in the tank if there's room!
come on down.

Unfortunately i'll be missing Karima Cherif's Bday party at raging waters though. oh yeah. hot day in san jose where it's much warmer than SF. show up to portland and seattle with tan - um i mean burn lines. heh. at least they'd turn into tan.

yup. i'm gonna be tan this summer. that'll prep me for the november trip i'm going to plan with the girls to hawaii so i can check out the new family digs on oahu. heh. when i get tan, i wear less make up. it's cool. super clear skin n all i need in the morning is a quick splash of water and i'm out the door. so low maintenace. i love it.

oh. another charity type event is coming up. it'll be on after i get back from LA. wicked city will be hosting a temple of atonement benefit. they're the bondage group that has a camp at burning man.
i'm on the flyer now. :)

this sat dont forget. if you're in SF, i'll be one of the panelists at the Society of Janus erotic photography SIG. check out info on my site calendar and/or http://www.soj.org

dammit.

stil cant figure out how to get cable connection thru the router in my room. :(

damn linksys.
we just got comcast to get cable hooked up here but i cant figure this shit out.
any one know how and can tell me this way?
what the hell do i need to do?
i need basic step by step for dummies.
:(

Society of Janus SIG panel

is this weekend...
go here for info on this panel i'll be on!

questions/topics covered so far:
If you deal in EDGY subject matter, how do you deal with public or media scrutiny over your images?

How much importance do you put in the computer enhancing of your photographs or is it important to capture the moment accurately from the beginning?

What kind of visual imagery are you drawn to - and why?

Black/White -or- Color? Celluloid or Digital? Why?

How important is makeup in capturing a model's LOOK?

What are your favorite places or atmospheres to shoot erotic portraiture?

Are your shoots highly erotic for you? If so - how?

Best experience in shooting erotic photography or being photographed?

Worse experiences? What could have been done to improve the situation - in hindsight?

In looking backwards at your life's work - define what you would most want to be remembered for photographically...

P Define as a Photographer what is BEAUTY in your eyes?

P How do you approach someone that you are captivated with and are DYING to photograph?

P How do you determine the MOOD or FEEL of a shoot when you have not met your model face-to-face prior to the shoot?

P What attributes do you look for in a model physically?

M As a Model - what things can a photographer do to make you feel at ease when shooting erotic photographs?

M As a model - whose work do you admire - and if you had the opportunity to model for them = what would the end result reflect?


any other suggestions for questions or topics?

tv tonite

looks interesting...

CAN YOU SEE MY PAIN?
6/02 11:30pm (26:40) (CC)
Through stark first-hand accounts, this program gives self-injurers a chance to tell their stories and talk about what they are doing to stop injuring themselves. It is a revealing look at those who self- injure, individuals who often secretly inflict cuts, scratches, burns, even broken bones, on their own bodies. Also included are clips from a 1995 interview with Princess Diana, a self-injurer.

taboo

anyone got a copy of the may issue of TAboo?

i wanna see the pic of me
grrr

hawt!

well after 11 pm and the news says it's still over 90 degrees F in some parts of the bay area!
yummy!