kumimonster: (gilles Gants)
2007-03-03 12:17 am
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ugh!!

i love being able to travel around europe and not only take the time to work and earn a living, but to also visit and hang out with the same people.

this week i've received over a dozen - almost 20 - emails from girls. asking me to give them leads for finding gigs in europe. oh, excuse me. PAID gigs.

i'm not saying i know everything and everyone out there, but i'm wondering if other models get emails like this? i can't be the only one. ?

i work my ASS off sourcing new photographers and producers, both online and in real life. why should i just simply give up the information? am i getting anything out of it? am i getting a cut? or should i just be nice?

i can't remember the last time someone actually hooked me up with a lead. i mean actively contacted me and said, 'hey kumi, this guy wants to shoot you and will pay you such n such money.'

i'm not saying it hasn't happened because i know it has. it's just been a very long time and it would take some thinking.

i spend a lot of time traveling and meeting people. some of my introductions took several visits to a particular city or country. so for example, if i spend the time to fly to a city, sometimes more than ones, to physically search for and eventually - hopefully - meet up with someone i'd like to work with, why should i give up their personal contact details to someone else?

sure it's nice to help people out, but then this isnt my hobby. this is my job.

and for the record. this next trip to europe already has me helping out one model who asked for contacts and that's it. so dont bother writing me if you're going to europe in april/may/etc. i'm not an agency. but if you'd like to offer a cut of your earnings, then sure.



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screw this. i'm going to the bar.
kumimonster: (marlaRedCraze)
2007-02-27 06:53 pm
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GAAAAAAAAAAH. fetish evolution models. site update crap.

damn!

it just took me several hours to edit (weed out the crap images, crop the crap bits, and resize) photos for ONE fucking set.
didn't watermark them yet. nor deal with color correcting.
holy fuck.

what is up with strange people trying to IM you for cyberShit and when you say you're busy they get all upset. I haven't dealt with that in a long time.

At this rate, it'll take me the rest of the week before i go to LA to finish up 2 weeks of fucking updates. This is BULLSHIT. At this rate, I might as well not have a website. Fucking irritating. No time to eat. No time to piss. No time to get other work done or deal with booking shoots.

Dealing with these galleries and getting them prepped to transfer over to the new site is a pain. What's worse is finding all the GLARING errors that i distinctly remember asking my webmaster to change. And no changes were made. Things like pages where gallery titles were the same as the prior weeks' update but was missed due to lack of caring or giving a shit, being rushed.

I will be in Copenhagen in April to finalize the new site with my new webmasters. i get TWO of them and they're super cool to hang out with as well know how to generate sales and market my type of site.

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In other work news, I'm running the show for Vex Clothing at the Fetish Evolution event in Essen this April. Laura just got back from a nice week of snowboarding. FUCK. I wish I was with her. The models have already been selected so don't even bother asking.

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Pasta with a littlel garlic and olive oil tonite from [livejournal.com profile] ostanine's olive trees.
miammiammiam.
kumimonster: (cam tongue)
2007-01-25 02:48 pm

deviant art

i've been using my deviant account a bit more nowadays.
posting images there and such. nothing that's not necessarily here already, or will appear here.

what is up with people posting entire gallery sets in there. and honestly, in my opinion, i find them to be pretty blah and boring. i do understand that there is an audience for amateur work, but most of the images in the fetish category aren't even really fetishistic in the sense that someone, somehow would find them sexual. it's as if someone said, "ooh, i want to make a fetish image. i can shoot a gothy model and that will be perfect."

and as far as photography for photography's sake, well, ugh!

speaking of which, i sent a link to [livejournal.com profile] stevedietgoedde yesterday. on it, photo critiques:


irving penn

-- Hi Irv, I don't know what you were thinking here dude! You got a pretty model (altho kind of old), but you have caught her with her eyes cloes in a not very good pose. Biggest problem is YOU NEED CROP to a vertical!!!!! Backdrop is too small and there is not enough of a sweep so you can see the crease. If you send me a file I can fix it in Photoshop and I can give you my suggested crop. If you don't care aboout your PROFESSIONALISM you are never going to get work as a pro believe me!!! Hope I am not being too harsh. Oh well best regards anyway, M.H.



henri cartier-bresson
-- Bonjour Henri, assuming you are French, or at least understand it. This is a great capture, I love the composition and the dog. We had a dog that looked kind of like that one once. Your problem here is that your AF has focused on the wrong place—the man is actually kind of soft! The camera has mistakenly focused on the people in the doorway, creating a distracting softness in the man. Usually it is best to focus on the closest object and most times the camera will choose the closest large object to focus on, but unfortunately not here. But it is still an amazing capture. Cordially, Edwin


more found at:
http://theonlinephotographer.blogspot.com/2006/06/great-photographers-on-internet.html
kumimonster: (Default)
2006-11-08 12:34 pm
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fucking pain

busy busy
which is good
better than not busy

but then now i wish i didnt go to the shoot i had yesterday
it was with a fotog i worked with before so that was fine.
but he hired this bondage guy to come. some 'master'

yeah whatever.
i should have known better.
from the start things didnt seem right.
he didn't ask me about my health or potential problems
and i obviously had marks from my show in amsterdam.
no flexibilty questions or anything of the sort.
so i started that talk myself.
fine.

then instead of discussing what positions etc we were going to do (he had a suspension point set up ready to go which wasnt exactly to my liking but would do), he put his hand out to um, 'read my aura' or some shit, so he could determine what he could do with me.
that was the 2nd *ding* that went off in my head.

so i told him what he was going to do instead.
start with a chest harness which he did, but.. er. it was odd.
tho this wasn't how i normally get one, i figured maybe he had some other technique he wanted to try out. *ding* 3.
not how i'm used to it but moving on...

then he put these ropes onto the side of the chest harness, not sure what he was planing. they cinced the rope and my skin with it. *ding*4
thigh ropes, ankle ropes. no space between rope and skin which i make him re-do by putting my own fingers in place. again it pinched my skin (too much) to which he replied that it was inevitable... (!?!?!?!) *ding*ding*ding*ding*

left ankle goes up. weight on my chest goes down and feels odd but i can handle it. then he starts attaching something to the side chest ropes and that wasn't feeling right at all. *ding* then i tell him the chest harness is completely unbalanced and not good at all and needs to be re-done, to which he questions whether or not he can fix it while i am still semi suspended. DUH *ding*

he tried to fix this by tugging and yanking on the ropes which illicits a really glaring look from me. pinched skin and unnecessary rope burn and strain. so i tell him to take it all off and do it again.
*ding*
up again.
at this point i realize that the ankle ties have not been locked and are cinching tighter. *ding* i tell him this shit is over and to take me down.
he does, but whips the ropes off too fast and ropeburn.
i tell him that i will undo those ropes myself.
so he gets to my ankle which is sensitive. after the ropes come off and i realize the ankle is sore with quite a bit of marks from the compression, he then starts to vigorously rub my fucking ankle which gets a big fucking shout from me to not touch me.

this session is over.
i suppose it was my fault for not stopping it sooner.

the days i spent in Tim included 2 days of bondage and SM work (several hours and multiple scenes), then a flight to Amsterdam for a bondage suspension show, followed by a flight to Vienna, with the next day (yesterday) this shoot i am talking about.
and even with the harder work i was less in pain.

now after this idiot 'master' my ribs are fucking sore and if i straighten up my torso and breathe in deap, i feel pain. and it irritiates me to no end that i let this idiot tie me up. it also irritates me that i didn't tell him to stop earlier. i knew it wasn't right. fuck. so now i feel like an idiot with fucked up ribs and more rope marks (uneven on my skin too) from this stupid 15 minute bit of bondage than all the bondage i did the other 3 days combined.
i didnt realize this until i woke up this am around 5am because sleeping on my side was causing me pain.

i cant remember his frikken name, but i can find out.
i do remember he said he was doing bondage work since 1995 or something.
so basically he's been doing shit bondage for over 10 years.


called the photographer today.
i wanted to tell him that i didnt want the images used anywhere nor given to that bondage guy. i dont want him to be able to list me as one of his credits and sucker other models into working with him. and to tell him that the rigger he hired somehow fucked me up. (the other people i worked with this week i have already worked with before and one thing i do know about well is my own body).
he says that the photo set of me suspended is un-useable. i have this really hateful expression on my face. and he has no problems deleting the images.
yeah.
now hopefully my ribs will feel better before the day is done.
kumimonster: (Default)
2006-10-30 08:56 pm
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oh starting...

hmm
so looking at omp since i havent been in there for a while
figured i would update my lil travel postings just in case i get more than just offers for straight porn or personal handjob gigs with a new fetish twist added in the description. bah.

anyhoo, checking out the forums and stuff.
wow. there are a LOT of really 'very experienced fetish models' out there as well as uber established photographers.
well, at least that is what they say so as far as their credits.
im not that dumb, and i think i have a decent grasp of who is 'known' but some of these people i have never even heard of. that's to be expected, one cant know everything but i do try and keep up on changes and trends as far as fetish goes on multiple continents so it gets a bit tricky.

anyhoo, i start checking out profiles and pictures... nice bodies but nothing that fetishy as far as photos. maybe a shiny glove here or there, maybe a high heel. pfft.
the images aren't bad really, but they arent really that great. and does it count to list a credit if you take an event photo (say a girl was wearing a certain designer and you take a snap shot of her at event. now you can list that designer in your list of photo coups)

travel... extensive travel. i love to travel too, but i wouldnt credit my trips from say, san jose to san francisco as extensive travel. psshaw!

oh, and speaking of clothing and wardrobe, gaaahhhh. i HATE ripped and tacky stockings. tho that's just a personal type of thing. and the BLACK lipstick has GOT to GO. i havent tried that stuff since well, like about 20 years ago.

anyhoo, so wardrobe. some of these girls state they have a fetish wardrobe and yet while browsing thru so called fetish images (already very few of those in their ports as mentioned above), i see no variety, nothing really THAT fetish, nor anything that would give me an inkling as to this collection of fetish gear that they say they posess. really, having a decent selection is somewhat important. you cant keep shooting in the same tired ass black bought of ebay dress that comes in a box (no offense to ebay, of course), not that i wear stuff that comes out of a box normally but the stuff is good for spanking and play that involves impact and possible destruction.

bah.
then i look at the minimum rates some of these girls are demanding
and quite a few have limits that dont even get close to mine!
that's it. rates are doubling now.


bah. i gotta go drink some chocolate milk.
er, chocolate soy milk.
kumimonster: (purple butts)
2006-05-19 12:19 pm
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oooo meanie

apparently i have irked someone enough to receive email.
jeeze what else is new. actually, i dont ever receive much email such as this, but i'm pretty sure some people dont like me - as if i care.

anyway, i am a fetish elitist snob and i need to go away and let other girls have their chance

well, no shit to the first and ?!?!? to the last.



tee heee!
oh i dont know if my life can go on. someone said a mean thing and my life is shit. i am so depressed. i am going to cry myself to sleep and hide away from the world. maybe put on some smiths or something. find a dull knife.

hah. fucking idiots.
when i stop having fun and getting paid to do my job, then perhaps. although i didn't realize i was preventing other girls from attaining their lofty fetish goals. not like there's that much money in the scene for fetish models. bahahahhaaa.
kumimonster: (Default)
2006-03-30 11:45 am
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fetish models n stuff like that

so the other day i got a bunch of emails/messages from girls wanting advice on starting to do fetish modeling for a living.
not sure why they came in all at once, there were like 10 of them.
some were in my email others were messages on various model sites

so i figured what the hell and just started a thread over at modelmayhem.
just so they could have another thread on the subject of fetish.

a lot of it is my ranting post from a couple years ago.
but i've added some things. i'm still adding though.
still have to talk about money and connections n stuff like that.

http://modelmayhem.com/posts.php?thread_id=37910
kumimonster: (gilles Sphinx)
2006-03-26 07:38 pm
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gahh why?

why do people even bother writing to you in order to set up a shoot
and then when you write back saying 'no TFP',
they respond that they're all booked up and too busy?!?!

this case,
time was mentioned (he asked about 'next month')
and my response was timely (within a day)

obviously he had time since this fotog was familiar with my travel schedule,
and though possible, i'm certain he didnt book himself up within the day
(actually, he mentioned being booked up for the next few months)

HAH
kumimonster: (hw blackHood)
2006-03-24 11:50 am

bitch bitch DIE

ok
so i'm on a roll
maybe it's because of all the events coming up
who knows
but regardless

i usually only post about events that if i'm attending, i'm going for sure, or i've already settled all negotiations.

who the fuck thinks they can actually go in and even ATTEMPT to BREAK my confirmed bookings by lowballing me AFTER the fucking fact?!?
Especially when these are promoters that i've been dealing with repeatedly for some time now.
these 'model/performers' actually think as first-timers they can dislodge me from the line-up by offering themselves up for a pair of tickets?

I don't make my tour plans a secret, people will always try.
as i mentioned before - it's a free market.
there are limited events to work at, i get that.
i handle bookings pretty much in advance
hell, i'm in negotiations concerning 2007 right now.
but BAD business tactics is still just that.
that's like fucking with me and i HATE that.
go on,
i'd love to openly HATE on someone,
it's been a while now.

oh, and why do i know this?
cuz the people at the events are showing me the damn emails!
fucking cunts
i need breakfast
kumimonster: (cmwSix)
2004-12-21 10:36 pm

fetish rant...

i dont know what there are more of now
fetish photographers or fetish models.

but one thing is true, they're all over the fucking place.
i suppose it doesn't matter if one is doing consistantly stand alone work and able to make money off of it.
but shit. a lot of times, that's what it is: shit.
when do all the patronizingly candy coated comments stop and the serious critiques begin?
when is it alright to tell someone their work sucks and not be innundated with a million statements from a variety of allies defending that which is mediocre and mundane?
it seems never in this "industry".
of course, there is that little saying, if you can't say anything else, then don't say anything at all...
but how is someone supposed to learn then?

of course, if you've got something bad to say or it goes against the masses of brown-nosers, chances are, you're just an asshole with an unpopular opinion.
heh
yea. assholes and opinions. everyone knows about those things.


the other nite at dinner, a few of us were discussing this topic.
those included, in my opinion, are and were established photographers in their own right, with complete resumes behind them that didn't just list admissions in anthologies or magazines, but actually contracted for their work with repeat customers for paid publication submissions. the photographers that were present lived off of their work, quite nicely in fact. One of them also keeps an expense vacuum in the form of a companion with a fondness for shopping. heh.

anyways, it was realized, that in other areas of photography, you can tell someone that you think their work simply sucks. of course, many follow it up with criticism and what not, which is nice, but not always the case. And with these critical words, there's often very little ass-kissing or attempts to soften the blow in order not to injure delicate emotions. people are happy because someone took the time to explain what they saw was wrong instead of fielding trite pleasantries and compliments.

for some reason, it seems to me, that in this fetish "industry" thing, there's a lot of damn pussies out there.
most communities - be it in yahoo or LJ, yes, even the ones I run - are full of massive amounts of ass-kissing.
i'm not saying complements are bad or shouldn't be given. But for fucksake, there's a lot of crap out there.
I can understand liking an image because of what it conveys - perhaps a kink not often represented that thrills you, or some sort of edgy behavior depicted pushing limits. Usually the photograph itself might be a bit unfinished or even not that good as far as popular opinion (ie. amateurish), but it does trigger an emotional reaction. Ok. I'm not talking about those types of photos.
i'm talking about the boring stuff that innundates and overflows. the stuff you just try to skim by really fast while hoping something will catch your eye... uh. yeah. right. not.

yes. i do post a lot of crap too. but hell, my crap is better than yours.
and if you dont like it, then i really dont care.
i'm still working, flying across the fucking planet, and having a great damn time.

oh. and then...

fuck. if you want to model, then treat it like any other job that's based off of a commodity.
this commodity being a product called: your looks.
as a model, that product is you.
some people wont like the product you're pushing.
granted there's a bit of personalitly included, but if you're a good model, you can fake a good personality.
especially if you're getting paid to.
but in the end, it doesn't matter if you're nice or can make people laugh.
it all hinges upon that outside superficial shell and the body below it.
if you don't like it that people don't like your product, if you cant take the "insults" then get the fuck out.
sure you can think that maybe someone out there does, that's always the case.
but the thing is, if you want to be successful, you need to be able to appeal to more than just a few.
not only that, you need to appeal to the people that run things.
not just the fans on the intraweb.
and there are a lot of fine ass chicks out there...
some don't even use the internet all that much.
oh, and if you're short, you're not doing runway fashion.
and why the fuck would someone email me about that kind of stuff anyways?
i dont do that shit.
i know my limitations.
do you?

everyone says you can't make money at this.
but they're wrong.
you can make money.
it's just that chances are, you wont.
i just fell into this sort of. i didn't just start. i met someone who knew someone who knew someone.
we all had the same interests and at the time in the U.S. what we were doing was still somewhat new. In Europe it had already begun.
it's been about a shit load of years for me now.
but i always remember that there are others that have been around longer.

when i started it was much different than now and the internet wasn't the way to meet people.
i met people through other people and attended events and gatherings in order to establish my own connections.
later, i flew to places to meet people and have face to face meetings.
i chase down and discover my own leads rather than having a majority of my potiential shoots coming from other models and I try not to work with people EVERYONE else has worked with before.
sure, the internet is great at facilitating meetings nowadays and i've used it too, but there are and will be limits. especially if and when i chose to deal with other professional photographers that may dabble in fetish and yet work in more commerical/fashion areas.
business is still business and this is my job and i prefer meeting people face to face if at all possible.

will i give you my connections? fuck no.
i've worked hard at making them, and unless you've kicked down to me then chances are, i wont want to open up my big list to you.
I do have one. it's divided up by cities & states (domestically) and countries too (Intl).
It lists websites and amount paid and other little details.
anyways, the last time i tried to help someone out i got screwed.
fuck you, by the way. come near me i cut off your clit.
i've tried to set girls up in the past - quite some time ago actually - with fashion shows, and those bitches ran off with the clothing that they thought wouldn't be missed.
Of course, at the same time, i end up looking like a total shit because of association.
Connections are all over the place on the interweb nowadays so go find then make some of your own.
That way you can have your own stories instead of using someone else's as a foundation.
And if you do, then give credit where credit is due.
Oh, and the good ones are fewer and far between and even harder to keep without real life interaction.
good fucking luck.
pet peeve:
Don't tell them I sent you. If I did, I'd tell them myself.
another pet peeve:
Working on building a connection for over a year, only to have someone jump on that shit.
i work at nuturing some relationships for quite some time, including flying to other cities to do so, then some fucker sends off a single email. cunt.


this rant in response to the emails i found today...
how can i become a fetish/bondage/pinup photographer/model blah blah blah...
who do you shoot with...?
who should i shoot with...?
which models are the best and will you hook me up?
blah blah etc etc blah blah crap?