bah!

hah

so my mom spoke to my cousin about me not being a part of the bridal party.
and so my cousin told her that it was fine.
and that she found a replacement.

she also told my mom that i was no longer invited to attend the wedding either.
and that she's no longer going to speak to me at all for the rest of her life

bahahah

even more hah

she came by with her mom and future husband

mom and my auntie yelled at her and she told them that i needed to grow up
mom gave her the dress i was supposed to wear and then some more yelling.

uncle and hubbytobe just hung out and stayed uncomfortable.

now my mom is about to get her sisters to fuck it all and save money and go on holiday during her wedding or something
bahahah

BAHAHAHH

now my mom was told that maybe she shouldnt go either. since, after all, she's my mom.

bah again

so she came back
to dis-disinvite me
but i was too busy yapping in IM and trying to figure out about my berlin trip and how late i could stay since i dont have to do the wedding. school starts and that's my cut off date for being away now.

so mom knows she has to allow me to go, or else mom wont go.
and if mom dont go, then the rest of our side of the family wont go aside from her immediate relatives and the other cuz that's in the wedding.

but now, my mom wont go, cuz she's waiting for an apology from my cuz for yelling at her when she came over the first time.

baAHAHAHHA

i think germany will be quite nice in june
hmm.. wonder what the chances are of rain in sonoma during june.. not likely. oh well.

in other news...

playboyTV thing was fun yesterday.
got to molest sassetteopants
zille took pix of us with raspberries in da toes n stockings.

saw the same dudes that shot the other ones.
they're cool and fun to hang with.
then i did another segment quicky with them for a tattoo piece.

that nite met up with them once more at SIN for the pornclownposse segment and had a blast.

wheeee!

shit.

now mom is asking me what kind of gift i should send her.
mom says cash so she can get a massage or something.

i think maybe a dildo
or maybe if i want to go balls out, a fucking machine?

oh god

now cousin's mom came over

almost crying
to talk to me in my room

the rest of the house is full of more azn family members and extended ppl.

she wanted to ask me to come to her daughter's wedding and left $500 on my puter.
ugh.

tried to give it back to her but then she started crying again.
ugh!
says if i dont take the money she'll feel bad.
now gotta go see if mom will take stupid money and give it back to her.
shit!

pain n the ass crap.

my auntie that was here earlier is yellin at my mom now
tell her to hand over the envelop full of money.
she's all like fuck dat! i'll take the money. i love it!
we're going shopping now
bahahaha

damn

something is really wrong with me
i'm watching the bachelor
bahaha

but not because i want to see these happy women win mr football guy... i'm kinda getting excited to see the leftovers and their faces when he dashes all their hopes and dreams to the ground.

bahahhaha

this is so good.
he passed out 15 roses to the 25 chix but gave one to the wrong girl cuz the name was wrong. now he's gotta take it back.

I KNOW there'll be some crying going on.
i cant believe i'm enjoying this
i'm totally feeding off their pain.
bahahaha