some ppl...

need to learn how to remove themselves gracefully

sometimes taking a step back before going forward is a bit conservative perhaps, but i dunno. i do it once in a while.
always best to rethink things a bit.

anyways, i figured i'd let things go
and just chill.
thought perhaps things had quieted down and there'd be no more pushing. i would just eventually forgive since things weren't too bad and at the point where i wouldnt actually hold hate and malice as any stubborn bitch would.
but no, some people are just too damn fucking dumb to know when to stop.

so i suppose, i will have to figure out what it is that i feel like doing to them.
this someone that i feel that has fucked with my nice balance of things - things that happen to tie in work, money, and once upon a time, drama-free friendships.
hmm.
i think, that if i had to choose between 2 paths, one that would make this person's life miserable or not, i would most definitely take quite a bit sadistic pleasure in what ever negative choice i could make. as long as i didn't have to go out of my way.

the last time i felt this way, i think i had mentioned to some friends. i had to make nice with someone that fucked me over tho i thought i knew her, but really didnt. anyways, personal feelings did not belong in the bar and i was cordial for almost a month. after that i broke down and the second she decided to sit next to me, her nose ended up spurting blood all over a bar.

i wish i had my guns... when i dated my ex that raced bikes, we used to go shooting with some other friends. it felt good to pull that trigger. at targets of course. but one had to be really calm and steady so we could be accurate.

oh well.
i gotta go to bed and watch something violent

chicken hawk

for some reason this pix makes me laugh

german fetish ball, berlin.
main event nite


this guy just looks l like um... prey?

(no subject)

i think i need the new thx-1138
special edition directors cut
yea yea yea.

thank you berlin!

thanks so much to everyone in berlin that made it a blast to stay there
especially the ever stressfull anna_phobia that had to deal with me and emilymarilyn and sway & norman staying at their flat. in addition to two more guests in another location.

also, thanks to rene for setting up the german fetish ball so that i could take prize winning photographs with my new digital camera of this new and upcoming star fetish model and world reknown fetish fotografer.

identities hidden to protect the innocent

skool skool...

hmm

trying to register for my courses online is suckage

for some reason it's really damn slow on my puter and i have cable

gotta wait to use pop's pc i thinking...

but nooo
at the moment i dont want to bother him
why?
cuz he's singing
kinda more like trying to!!! bAHAHAHA

---

La-da-da-da-dahh
It's the motherfuckin D-O-double-G SNOOP DOGG!
La-da-da-da-dahh
You know I'm mobbin with the D.R.E.
YEAH YEAH YEAH You know who's back up in this MOTHERFUCKER!
What what what what?
So blaze the weed up then!
Blaze it up, blaze it up!
Just blaze that shit up nigga, yeah, 'sup Snoop??)

Top Dogg, bite me all, nigga burn the shit up
D-P-G-C my nigga turn that shit up
C-P-T, L-B-C, yeah we hookin back up
And when they bang this in the club baby you got to get up
Thug niggaz drug dealers yeah they givin it up
Lowlife, yo' life, boy we livin it up
Takin chances while we dancin in the party fo' sho'
Slip my hoe a forty-fo' and she got in the back do'
Bitches lookin at me strange but you know I don't care
Step up in this motherfucker just a-swangin my hair
Bitch quit talkin, quick walk if you down with the set
Take a bullet with some dick and take this dope from this jet
Out of town, put it down for the Father of Rap
And if yo' ass get cracked, bitch shut yo' trap
Come back, get back, that's the part of success
If you believe in the X you'll be relievin your stress

La-da-da-da-dahh
It's the motherfuckin D.R.E. Dr. Dre MOTHERFUCKER!
La-da-da-da-dahhh
You know I'm mobbin with the D-O-double-G

Straight off the fuckin streets of C-P-T
King of the beats you ride to em in your Fleet. Fleetwood
or Coupe DeVille rollin on dubs
How you feelin whoopty=whoop nigga whut?
Dre and Snoop chronic'ed out in the 'llac
with Doc in the back, sippin on 'gnac. yeah
Clip in the strap, dippin through hoods. what hoods?
Compton, Long Beach, Inglewood!
South Central out to the Westside. wessyde
It's California Love, this California bud got a nigga gang of pub
I'm on one, I might bail up in the Century Club
with my jeans on, and my team strong
Get my drink on, and my smoke on
Then go home with, somethin to poke on. whassup bitch?
Loc it's on for the two-triple-oh
Comin real, it's the next episode...

Hold up, heyyyyyyyy
for my niggaz who be thinkin we soft
We don't, playyyyyyy
We gon' rock it til the wheels fall off
Hold up, heyyyyyyyy
for my niggaz who be actin too bold
Take a, seeaaaaaat
Hope you ready for the next episode
HeyyyeyyyeEYEYyyyEYYYY....
.... smoke weed everday!

and a good thing.. packages

so far so good...

louis from amf told me he received one of the packages i had sent yesterday.
2 corsets and a skirt and 2 masks.
good thing to as insurance would have just covered 500 euro and it would have sucked replacing his lost stuff.

and today i got my half of the shipment from berlin.
i forgot what i had in the box too!
i knew there was latex, but not how much!
my black and transparent flame/striped floor length super unique piece.
my green transparent short dress from madameS
the burgundy hair skirt from vex.
and a white mini skirt from vex too.
burgundy heels
and 2 pairs of wolfords.

hmmm... i must go bug missCon and check out these dolce shoes she got sittin there...
now, if only my damn cartier-bresson print would arrive... :(

hamburg

with matthias from bondageproject.de

yeah!
we're performing in Rome together at Ritual!

http://www.ritualtheclub.com

happy belated 50th...

so i almost forgot to post this
last weekend (July 31)
some of my buddies had their 50th anniversary
and the chronicle covered it.

i've known various members for over 10 years now - almost 15 - and they've always been great to me. They have kept my body intact at clubs where drunk guys are being stupid - or perhaps i was being drunk and stupid.
a few nights, when i was too incapcitated to drive home, i stayed at the clubhouse safe and sound and unmolested in any way. and let me just say, there's no where else safer in the city to keep a car parked outdoors.
they never treated me as one of their bitches or groupies, but instead, when they'd have a guy's night out, they'd invite me along to hang out after the meeting at the clubhouse once they hit the bar and then again afterwards to the strip club. i suppose it's also where i learned that certain stories are best kept quiet and screwing people over is not a good thing.
hanging out with them on the couple of runs i attended were great. just chilling and having a really good time with super cool guys n shit.
understandibly, there are some that have run-ins with law enforcement, but maintain that the majority in SF that i know have a decent relationship with the PD here - except for a couple of local incidents and last year a big to-do with the ATF. Regardless, they've never harmed me but instead have kept me from harm.

i've been to a few other states and countries and have found myself in the company of some of other brothers that had been in SF at some event or other. a few have recognized me and we end up hanging out and their slight position of 'older brother' ends up forming. it's nice to know a few of the guys when you're bouncing around dive bars n such.
So yea. happy 50th to the Frisco HA's







SF gate/Chronicle story with more pix

phone phone phone

yeah

me n emily shooting with da ken marcus on next friday


yes jules
on my way soon
and i will bring u plugs