seattllleeeee

so who the hell am i seeing up there?

doing that thing for impy

is there going to be a moooooday?

shit
nov 30 to like dec 7 i am going to be there
rawrrrrr

staying with jamesM
tho dec 4 am i staying with IMP or u Kev?

too early

shooting today

hmmm i was thinking
i dont think i wrote enough
i dont think i gave auschwitz all that it deserved.
it's been a goal of mine to visit after all.


oh well, not sure what to say, but i do know that going by tour is not the way to go. but then, it's better than not going at all. there were groups of people being rushed through each exhibit area, like heards of cows. with all the people there was no opportunity to actually absorb. too safe. no chance to feel swallowed up by the place.

though while i was wandering around block 11 i got to the room with windows overlooking the area between block 10 and 11 at the end.
it was that wall where they lined people up for shooting. one of the groups of students were placing their lit candles with the others that were already there. the colors they wore were a stark contrast to the sombre tone of the place. i tried to watched their faces to see what they were thinking. i dont know if they were just going through the movements or if they really were invested in the action. it was interesting to observe though.

oh, i also noticed colored tiles running along one of the blocks. it was on near the back, close to block 1 and ran along the double fence that seperated crematoria 1 and the small patch of grass where hoess was hanged from the other blocks.

hmm
more later

cries

imp_of_satan dont wanna feel me up

updates fun

hmmm let's see. those images shot by mourthe are now up. the ones of me in the honour shirt and skirt looking severe with that peacock feathered pill box hat.

then there are the shots by aaron hawk. finally got all the ones he did of me in one place all together.
he did the pic below btw.

me and dee dee luxe playing around in atsuko latex at gwen media

oh and me and darlingsub being dirty girls at fetishnation

steendaddy shoots me in latex created by vex and featuring that stained glass design.

funny men

oooh

the_vet is a grumpy little man
his rules or no rules at all
immediate change and adaptation required.
it seems i do know how to repulse him
heh.

grrrr

stupid fucking interviews
supposed to have finished french one on monday
so i'm a bit late
difficulties abound.

must trudge on thru and keep trying.

i guess i should have worked on it more while my head was still thinking in french, rather than now, where i'm using english more.

paris n vienna

oooh
got pix from gilles today
nice

also
mistress_sandra!! the package finally arrived.
so spat!!!!
grrr

better than never though!

and again once more

finished shooting

all done straightening out all the luggage and clothes n things
in other words, packed again.
tomorrow morning 8am
off to warsaw!!!
i hear there be snow
brrrr


i picked up a book at auschwitz
but i already finished it
'i was dr mengele's assistant'
nice read. didnt get highly emotional which i liked.
direct which i had hoped for seeing as that the author was a Dr.
but not enough of the nitty and gritty.
ok. fine. i was searching for morbididty and rawness.
there were some, interesting bits.
i never knew the men delievering the zyklonB wore international red cross uniforms.
And drove a van marked in the same way.

off today

up and at em early enough
all packed last nite
should be out the door any minute

off to warsaw!
performing with suka off tomorrow nite at M25
should be a little link or something over at
http://www.gothic.pl
a little foto of yours truly too

oh it snowed here last nite
brrrr

the_vet makes me snort
and he's a dork