alone time

well
it seems i didn't make it out again
was supposed to head up to fd_midori  n sfracerx  's place for 4th bbq
but instead i fell asleep
just didnt feel it
then woke up and was still too tired.
can't seem to find any energy or enthusiasm.
hmm
i hear fireworks going off all over
thinking maybe i should go to the local bar but that just might be a lil too depressing
i dunno.
meh.

i'm doing horrible at pushing this one guy outta my head.
i really need to not think about him at all and just concentrate on my own stuff
but then it's always easier said than done.
it'll be fine i'm sure.



i did get some really funny news about this one guy.
funny how people try to bad mouth you to friends because they think they have a better relationship or something,
and then they get busted.
but then it came as no surprise either.
sucks for them that they also included someone else in their shit talk who they've been publicly kissing ass to though.
heh.


yeah. maybe local bar. if i can get out of house.
hanging with family is cool though.