the big "R"

[kumimonster]

i actually tweeted about it earlier today but i think it deserves it's own actual real post.

this morning i woke up and felt tired - not 'i need to sleep more' just tired of the whole runaround of trying to book shoots n whatnot.
i do like organizing things and making sure things are so set up that they fall through perfectly, including dates, travel, outfits, etc.
and obviously, i love flying around.

but lately, hmm... well for quite some time now, shoots jut aren't hat much fun anymore. Not all, but some.
there are still some projects i'd like to do, and maybe one or two photographers i'd like to work with too, but for the most part, i think i'm just about done with it. well, i'm not done with it now - i don't hate it or anything, but i have noticed being less than %110.  i figure i can give myself til the end of this year.

i still have things to do and shows to attend and perform at. I still enjoy doing that and i'll still work with the latex companies i push.
i still like latex too.
and once in a while i enjoy the amateur shoots that i set up with new photographers interested in fetish that turn into part photoshoot/ part private lecture/workshop session.

i don't know. maybe it's just that this am i realized that the thought of "retirement' came into my head and this was the first time I actually seriously paused to think on it.

so maybe it's time to give it a go.
i'm not sure but i know i don't want to be one of those models that say they're going to retire and then comes back again.
seriously, what i am i going to do? have a  come-back in a few years when i'm 45?

Comments

[piratephoto.livejournal.com]

it'd be a sad day to see a true fetish legend retire, but if its not making you happy like it once was then maybe it is time to stop and just do the shoots that you really want to do with more creative thought behind them.