in LA now/more UK stuffs

[kumimonster]

tonite going to cheetahs
took this shuttle bus down that steveDG showed me on calshuttlebus.com
really nice
just a 6 hour drive and uncrowded and efficient
great for last minute trips instead of paying $200 for airfare.

kinda tired but going to cheetahs to watch girls take it off.

hmmm...
somewhat feeling like caca tho.
dont usually air dirty laundry of others or myself but i kinda want to write something somewhere.
just wont mention names.
He says it's not my responsibility but i don't think that exonerates me.
bad first impressions left.
i made someone else hurt and it wasn't malicious or intentional.
it was careless and unthoughtful though and as responsible adult should have known better.
i fell like i've entered the realm of deceitful and i feel like mechante mentuese now.
and now i can never say i've never done something bad to someone else with knowledge.
so much for keeping promises to myself and so much for my usual habits of going out of my way to not hurt others.
apologies dont really help.
this i know since i have been on the receiving end a few times.
which makes me feel like i should have had even better decision making choices.
ugh.

ok.
that said and done now.
maybe i write more in seperate enty.
maybe i delete later.
who da fuck knows.
blarh.

i go shower n shave da head.
playing pool tonite and i dont want wigs to get in the way of my game since i'm drinking dammit.

Comments

[violetjunefaire.livejournal.com]

too bad you couldn't join me tonight. Call me so we can hang out while you're here. I got car.

Damn!!

[evalux.livejournal.com]

Wish I'd have known you were going to Cheetah's! A couple of other peeps were going there or else Crazy Girls. To see why I decided to stay home, read my journal post from today. n Or just come over to my pad for drinks and I'll tell you in person. You got my #, you're welcome to drop by Studio City and say hi. But if you're busy that's cool.

[wrayb.livejournal.com]

Yo. Like you say, apologies don't help. And you can't be completely respons for the goings on inside another's head/heart. Look, i know how open and friendly you are. and how aware and conscious and careful with the feelings of others. you can't make it all be good. others have got to go through the karma they carry. i could give examples of how sad and silly i've been. let's just say that they will live and will be much better off if you will keep on being klever kumi kutie...monster.

p.s. feel free to delete this if ya wanna.

cheers.

[darenzia.livejournal.com]

Hugs to my Kumi
catch me on AIM later if you wanna talk :(