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[kumimonster]

showed up last nite as mentioned before
sat around house watching end of CSI. dammit.
then without a trace.
what was i thinking when i packed?
i have latex up the ass.
one pair of socks
one wifebeater
one pair of sweats
4 wigs
3 pairs of shoes
and like 10 pairs of panties
:|
guess i dont have much to choose from if i'm going out
and i'm not going out to latexy places either.
unless someone drags me to dungeon or some shit

me n rachel took off and picked up robert
then headed over to cheetahs
sat around, talked, watched girls, tipped girls, stared at girls' bootays.
i played pool and won every game i was up for. gave table away though.
damn forearm is still not quite right. i hope i didnt damage it too seriously.
massage chick at y local bar says i have knots in my forearm!
to match the huge ones in my neck and shoulders
shit.
and they're so tight i will notice it until i get them out.

so last nite went out.
thought it'd go a bit differently but it went oddly.
wondered why i even showed up though it was fun to meet some of the guys that rachel knows and that i know from online.
i felt out of place and unnecessary.
even at dinner afterwards.
went to diner an they even had KALBI!
that was good though.
but still.
wondered whether or not my being there was of any consequence.
i wish i had brought my book at least so i'd be doing something constructive.
i just wanted to leave and go back to rachel's.
so we left.
got home and tried to get on other puter
but it wasnt allowing me to check my mail.
and thre was no yahoo or msn on there.
and i coudnt install yahoo.
it was so slow so about 4 30 am i gave up and got ready for bed.
fell asleep around 5 am and woke up at 9 am.
rachel still sleeping. 11 am now.
i think korean barBQ or sushi in order.
gotta bug steen in a bit and see if rachel wants to go.
but i think she supposed to be shopping today.

i feel like mental caca

Comments

i love you!

[shanekeiko.livejournal.com]

Go get some comfort food.

Tell Steen you need a hug.

And forgive yourself ....

Thinking of you.

[zenseer.livejournal.com]

Don't beat yourself up for the brief, fleeting moments of time that you make mistakes. What you consider mental caca is peak performance for many. I know you wished that you had something with you while you were out to be productive, but you may have needed that small break in the first place. You take care, dagnabbit!